So I need to take a moment and get something off my chest before I just...well before I explode I guess.
I absolutely LOVE LeeAnna Avila. There, said it. Done. Over with. But not really because...
I remember thinking back to over a year ago, when a certain someone else had found a new relationship right after ending ours. I remember how quickly that new relationship formed, and I specifically remember how I thought the entire thing was a complete and total lie,
and that it was not possible to feel that way about someone you only knew for a few weeks. Well, I'm sorry I thought that... because oh do I believe it's possible, and oh it is happening to me.It's not even been a month yet, not until the 20th, but already, I can't believe what I feel for her is real. I believe most of it has to do with what I -with lack for a better term- believe to be the first real 'pure' relationship I've been in. If you recollect back to all of my past relationships, they all begin with tragedy and bullshit. Lies, cheating, sisters, best friends... Let's face it, I was a bad person. I don't think it was all purpose - no I know it wasn't all on purpose, but some of these things just happened. What's important is that I believe (even if others don't) that I truly learned from that and now I know how to never to treat a girl ever again, and I'm sorry to all the girls I've ever hurt the way I did, because if this is how it is supposed to be I sincerely failed all of them. Anyway, all that isn't exactly relevant, but the point is...I have a genuine love for this girl, and I've never felt that same loved returned to me in the way that she does when she looks at me. We have complete and total trust for each other. This whole experience is like rediscovering love for the first time, or maybe I'm going to find out this is what it is supposed to be like, and I've never known it. Either way, I'm completely overwhelmed and intoxicated by it.
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so i left a comment before but it obviously didn't post. anyways, the jist of it was...I know it sounds weird but I'm so happy for you. I know our break up was really rough on you but it had to end the way it did or we would of continually of been running in circles. Also, that look she is giving you now, I KNOW that I have given you that look before and possibly some of the others. You just never took the time to notice. I loved you with every ounce of my being. BUT the point is that NOW that you are realizing that look and actually starting a relationship off the right way. All I hope is that you love her for all that she is and never turn your back on her. Be the amazing boyfriend and more that I know you can be when you make try! :)
With Love,
Jeska
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