Etadpu Trap Owt

....Don't stare at the title like that. It's 'update part 2'. It's important to note that the sentence itself is not backwards, just the words in the sentence. Or maybe it's not important to note, who knows.

So what's up? How's the outside world?

I ask because...well...since about April 30th, I've been out of my house a total of 3 times. They were to go to work. Other than that, it's just been me at my house. I've been pretty Okay with that though, it's not really a big deal. I'm happy by myself. I say that because all this time alone really got me to thinking about how I observe people. I see many people in relationships and I have to ask myself...do they really think they're happy? I can't ask them this of course, it would be rude. And of course they would respond that they were happy, when in fact, they probably aren't.

It doesn't mean they don't love the person they're with, it just means that they're not really happy. I think that's a part of life though. If you're going to be in love with someone, you're going to be sacrificing some of the other things that might make you happy. The difference between me and these people is that now I really enjoy having the things that make me happy, and the ability to be able to do and say anything I please without having to really make sure it's okay with someone else.

With these things in mind. I can't wait to graduate and get my own job and place. To be able to do what I want, when I want. The ability have what I want when I want it, and not have to agree on this and that in my place. Maybe that means I'm just truly happy single, or maybe...

I'm just a selfish asshole. lol.

On another note...If you're one of my friends that I keep. (for one, know that you are far a few between) But anyway...if you notice I just randomly fall off the face of the earth for a few days, or even a week or 2...don't be alarmed. I was thinking today. I don't know why I do this now, but I do. I see you trying to contact me, I just ignore it. It's nothing personal. It's nothing that you've done. -It's just something that I do sometimes. Sorry.

Chris Out.