Friday, August 5, 2011

What you do shouts so loudly...

That I cannot hear what you say.

Hey, that's something that Ralph Waldo Emerson said that once...

So I've done something stupid and made someone I care about a lot not trust me anymore. And I know that the quote above is directly what is going through that person's head, and there's not a damn thing I can do about it.

It sucks. But what am I supposed to do? Yes you can admit wrong, and yes you can so called 'change' but if that person never actually forgives you for it...you're screwed. And guess what I am? Screwed.

"You'll never get married Mr. Langdon" -A student said this to me last week. While I know that she was entirely just joking...she's also probably exactly right. (No, I'm not saying the above situation was going to lead to marriage or anything, but it just makes me think in general.)

I probably won't. Every relationship I get into falls apart. Whether it be my fault or not...something always happens. After a while you just figure it's you and that, hey, that's just how you're destined to be.

I just want to be happy, for once. -And to have it last.