I have a whole whole whole lot on my mind right now. Most of which has already come out today...but much of which is still tucked away in the corners of my mind.. It's funny the direction that life takes you, and the people that are placed in it. Everyone has someone that they wonder why they know them, or why someone happens to be in their life. I think that is a completely normal human emotion. The problem with that question is more often then not - the answer...
Sigh I find myself really incoherent tonight...is it really that big of a deal to me. Yes. I've never been forced in the situation I'm in now. I kinda feel cornered, like an animal that's going to freak the hell out at some point and kill somebody. haha.
Anyway. Perhaps this will become a medium for me to talk through for a while. We'll see.
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I know it's not goodbye it is at the same time. ..I guess that's why I want to spend time with you, I'm just not ready for you to leave...even if you're coming back later it still sucks - because even when you come back it's just so that you can leave again...and as weird as it sounds you're the most important person in my life right now and I'm just not ready to see you walk away and hope I see you again one day. You're probably the most amazing and genuine person I've ever met and if I could have one thing it'd be to hold you, whisper 3 words in your ear, and not care about anything else.
