Keep Swimming?

I'm really glad that I got to see you yesterday too. You don't know how mad and upset you made me when you kept blowing me off like you were or at least that's how it felt. You know or at least you better know that I love you Chris. I can't make 4 years disappear like it never happened. You were my best friend and I was worried that you were gone completely because of all this. I still want you to be in my life. You don't know how happy it makes me that you can accept me and Erik and not get upset about it anymore. That makes me happier than ever, I don't even know how to explain it. I didn't like to see you hurting. Like you said, I'll always be here for you even if I'm half way across the world. I hope nothing but happiness for you. I hope you find a girl that will give you everything you want and need and make you as happy as Erik makes me. We both deserve that because we REALLY stuck it out for each other as long as I believe we could have. Don't let it be forever before I hear from you or see you again. Oh by the way!

*just keep swimming, just keep swimming..*


That was sent almost a year ago. I found it while going through and deleting old myspace messages. I see how most of what was said was true, but some things have changed - how could they have not? (However there was some Irony to the half way cross the world part, seeing as how..now..she is? haha)

Life is so strange, how it gives you twists and turns. But the important part is whether or not you can roll with it and keep going. So far I think I've done pretty good, but I still have a ways to go.